uncertain.

so this past week has been loaded with so many feelings it is hard to even know where to start. first off i managed to get into a car accident. i have no clue what even happened. basically i woke up in the ambulance. i am fine other than messing up my face a bit and banging my head. so i have been in a lot of pain. but they gave me drugs. so that part is okay.

today i found out i have to go to court because i am a bad driver. lol. i am scared shizless. i mean i have never been in trouble before. well at least not with the law or anything like that. i just do not know what to do. i should be sleeping but i can not stop thinking.

clay day.

lately i have learned a few things about myself. one is that i happen to be indesicive. i have not quite figured out if this is a good or bad thing. however i have made one desicion: college. i am going to othe college of biological sciences at the u of m. although i have not quite decided what for sure i am majoring in i am thinking microbiology. after i looked at what classes i will have next year i nearly fainted. i have come to the conclusion that i will not have a life whatsoever next year. or perhaps for the next ten years.

the next thing i have learned is something most people learn quite early. it is that you can not be good at everything. in the past most things have came really easy to me. i am one of those people that does not need to study to do good and is good at stuff the first time. but i guess this is not always the case. this quarter i took ceramics thinking it would be a slack off class. ya know the easy A. well i was wrong. the first day we made a pinch pot. mine looked just as bad as the one that i made as a kindergartener. the next two projects went okay. the past days the seniors have been on the wheel trying to get our three pieces done before our last day. and i stink. first of all i can not even center the clay let alone make anything. i also end up looking like i was in a mud fight by the end of class. this is all a true story.